I cannot [[go on|intro1]]

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And ever mumuring my old story, as if it were the first time.\n\nAnd yet I am [[afraid|6]]

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I shall begin to [[know something|2]]

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Beckett Prototype

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I cannot go on,\nI'll [[go on|1]]

by Alex Christie